Your death

At the back of my shattered heart
I had hoped you were in a vacation
For it was not your decision
To leave me 
All alone
Even when I saw your lifeless body in a coffin
It felt like a fairytale
For my thoughts have not registered with the current reality
Each day has become a fatality
I wish to spend one last moment with you again.
I wish to have opened my feelings to you.
Perhaps,you would still be here with me.